Im Bloggin’ Baby! All Dee All Day!!!

So… I think i have it all figured out. It all became clear to me as I sat in bed, typed on the iPad (SN: Wordpress for iPad is MONEY) and listened to r&b songs. What I have figured out is that I am truly afraid of commitment. I have a GTB or Girlfriend To Be. She knows who she is and as it stands no one is taking her place (if you are asking yourself – is it me? Its not)! So, you might ask… Dee, if you know who she is, why not make it official? Maybe because titles complicate things? I like my life as it is right now. More so, I like me & my GTB relationship as it is/has been. Relationships dont work for me… I mean shoot, look at me & Fica… Lol… Low blow… I’m sorry. But forreal, Fica and I didnt really fall off til we started talks of moving in together (best break-up ever though). My GTB and I arent talking about moving into together but when you make things official you have to care more. Lol, stupid I know but hear me out. You ever been “hanging/chillin” with someone and they always out/going out and you tell em – have a good time, enjoy yourself? Then you go hang out yourself, not really caring what they are doing. Then all of a sudden, the minute yall become official, it becomes – why you always out/whatchu doing when you are out? The fact that you are “official” complicates thangs and dammit its not fair! On the other hand, Im no cold hearted a-hole. I realize that if you are feeling someone its not cool to string em along either. Not to mention, its great knowing that someone likes you for you.

You know what? Maybe I shouldnt listening to r&b? They make ppl too emotional anyway. Im deleting all of these Anthony Hamilton and Ne-Yo songs ASAP! Get me?